Weekly update

Hi folks

Not much has really happened this week health-wise. Just a slight wobble with my old lady, Maud. She's a cat and my zen master. She has taught me much about love, being chill, patience, just existing without a constant need for validation or approval. She's been dealing with a thyroid issue for a few years, for which, medication hasn't worked. Sometimes she stops eating. Luckily catnip works well for her and helps her appetite. 

As for me, I'm still waiting for the pelvic pain specialist who I'm pretty sure at this point is rarer than a unicorn. I've been waiting for, hmmm let's think, 4 years.... My referral keeps getting rejected. It's taken so long that I have now asked to be referred back to my gynaecologist. I feel at a loss and often it's this mixed with a lack of MH support that drives me to the brink.

I don't even know where to start with my mental health. The local MH hospital keep telling me that I don't want help every time I ask for help. It often feels like they don't want to help. Or maybe they just don't have the services and staff to deal with anything beyond absolute crisis. 

I've not done much art lately but know it will be there when I need it.

I've been getting back into my plant knowledge and herbalism. Life has gotten expensive in the UK and good food and medicine is now out of budget. My plan is to make my own pain salve again similar to the CBD massage bar "joints" that is sold by Lush. I've found it really works for me, however, I'm really not keen on patchouli so will be using a different scent profile. I'm not a qualified herbalist so can't give a full recipe but will put down the recipe for the standard massage bar, to which you can add your own blend of herbs and essential oils.

Much love 

M x